Lose but Gain

I'm young and I refuse to waste my youth being unhappy with my weight because it's the only chance I have. This is my blog to encourage and help me along my journey to finally being happy with a great body.

im so sad

i have no friends, which is ironic because that’s what i need more than anything. i need to be needed. i want to be wanted. why won’t anyone return a single text or message? please, please god, please random tumblr people, please anyone out there. it’s a crazy thought but i want to be able to restrict again. i want them to all go away and i want to be thin. i need to be thin.

i agree: i either want to be fully recovered or emaciated—the in between is unbearable

tits-hips-and-collarbones: vid: this. Holy balls, this. I’d have more respect for the person if they’d verbally abuse me for a solid half hour than if they did this.

tits-hips-and-collarbones:

vid:

this.

Holy balls, this. I’d have more respect for the person if they’d verbally abuse me for a solid half hour than if they did this.

If you’d like a more solid idea of what to do for the warmup, try this: 1 minute High Knees 1 minute Burpees 1 minute Jumping Jacks 1 minute Alternating Straight Leg Lifts 1 Minute Mountain Climbers And some other modifications: If pull ups are too challenging for you and/or you don’t have the equipment necessary for lat pull downs, do bicep curls instead. If you don’t have a step or something sturdy to step onto for step ups, do front kicks with a two hand touch. (See how to do so 4:20 seconds into Week 1’s workout.) If you have lower back issues or weakness, trade the straight leg situps for a 30-60 second plank hold. (Any type of crunch can put a lot of unnecessary pressure on the lower back, so it is recommended that you avoid such exercises if you’re sensitive in that area.)

If you’d like a more solid idea of what to do for the warmup, try this:

1 minute High Knees

1 minute Burpees

1 minute Jumping Jacks

1 minute Alternating Straight Leg Lifts

1 Minute Mountain Climbers

And some other modifications:

If pull ups are too challenging for you and/or you don’t have the equipment necessary for lat pull downs, do bicep curls instead.

If you don’t have a step or something sturdy to step onto for step ups, do front kicks with a two hand touch. (See how to do so 4:20 seconds into Week 1’s workout.)

If you have lower back issues or weakness, trade the straight leg situps for a 30-60 second plank hold. (Any type of crunch can put a lot of unnecessary pressure on the lower back, so it is recommended that you avoid such exercises if you’re sensitive in that area.)


(via hungryrunner)

How can you expect me to get better when I have no one to speak to

And how can you expect me to face battles unarmed and vulnerable?

And why

Why do my lips open to ears closed
And my meticulous words get shot down with rashness?

And why

Why if you want me to build back up
Do you strip me of every bit?

Do you hope to find the old me, the better me, newborn amidst the wreckage?

Do you hope to silence and subdue me until I am broken so that you, so that you can be the one to reshape me?

Do you forget how perfection leads to ruin.

I’m so fucking fat

And I just get fatter ever day
they’re feeding me so much
I’m literally huge
I must have gained like 5 lbs in three days

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck